For the sake of context or understanding me without thinking I’m totally crazy, I hope some of you can relate to my experience of “best friend turned more turned ambiguous complicated relationship turned all out failure.” Without using the actual words, we’ve both decided it’s healthiest for us to walk away right now, and boom: broken relationship. What are the roles of forgiveness here, on both sides of the equation? How does forgiveness in my personal life relate to forgiveness of larger, systemic injustice issues, if at all?
In my experience, forgiveness has not been one of the “social justice buzzwords,” and I feel like it should have a greater presence. I believe that social justice begins with right relationship, and forgiveness is a definite step in the direction of forming right relationship. Right relationships are formed when the dignity of each human being is recognized and upheld, at the very least. If I am not in right relationship with those closest to me, how can I preach or work for a stronger global community to live in right relationship to create a more just society for the future?
As I was working on this post, I got a little caught in my head so I e-mailed one of my mentors at Xavier. He reminded me that though forgiveness is a two-way street, it is a three party relationship: forgiver, forgiven, healer (God). In my recent situation, I had been trying to feel the effects of forgiveness solely through my intellect and with God, leaving out the other person entirely, and it wasn’t working (surprise!). Ephesians 4:32 says, “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” It may take longer than we would hope in our personal relationships for all parties to offer/accept forgiveness (though God is always ready and willing immediately, once we ask) because it doesn’t work on our time schedule. Forgiveness is ultimately God’s to give; forgiveness does not “belong” to us.
We don’t get to decide to forgive and then magically have everything snap into good-standing. (Bummer.) Similarly, justice does not “belong” to us, either. That is also God’s to give, but these gifts are channeled through us as beings in relationship with one another. As Dean Brackley said, “Healing, liberating forgiveness is a gift we cannot force. If it comes ultimately from God, however, it normally comes through others. It is channeled by people who accept and forgive us in their own human way.”
Like our own personal relationships, in many situations in need of social justice, there’s often a lot of hurt present; if forgiveness and justice are not ours to ultimately give on our own, how can we help heal or work towards an elimination of that hurt? Why do we work for social justice? How do we be that channel? We can pray for God’s healing mercy. I feel like this piece is often lost in a lot of talk regarding social justice, yet is so important if we are to move forward in a stronger, more loving, more just world. We focus on issues that lead to the problems of injustice, and we focus on creating relationships and solidarity with those suffering, but do we talk about the forgiveness needed to help heal all involved? One article I found stated it well:
… Justice focuses not on the past but on the future--on building a just future characterized by peace, by shalom, which means not mere absence of conflict and harm but positive well-being, a world in right relationship. ...
Forgiveness, as we’ve been describing it, is virtually the same thing. It works by maintaining a basic sense of community with the rest of the human race and by looking forward, even when there is little encouragement from the data, to a time when others will join us in God’s household for the creation of a new world. Justice seeks the world of shalom, the life of the age to come. It will do nothing that would make such a world impossible. It will do anything that might actually bring it closer. It will even forgive. Instead of dedicating ourselves, then, to the impossible task of getting the past right, we find ourselves freed by forgiveness to live fully in the present and to begin building something new and better.
My first reaction to reading something like this would probably be, okay, so what do I do now? More Dean Brackely helped me here:
The experience of acceptance and forgiveness empowers us to face our part in the evil of the world. The New Testament says that God offers this forgiveness no matter what we have done—not because we are good, but because God is good. People we have offended and other victims can mediate that healing and liberating news. Of course, it takes two to reconcile. Our part in the bargain includes admitting our faults and changing.
The doing item here, then, is being aware of and making changes to our own actions. That’s what we can do and can control. Another article I came across by a professor at Gonzaga University, stated: “Socially, both forgiveness and the disciplined process of reconciliation draw us into a crucible from which we can emerge more refined, more willing to see the heart of another, and more able to create just and lasting relationships.” If we can turn inward and learn to continually seek forgiveness in our current personal relationships, which are small (but important) in the grand scheme of the world, we can better learn seek it on a much larger scale, can be examples for others, and pray that reconciliation, healing, and a brighter future can take place through God’s granting.
Though we may live in a broken world with broken relationships, God’s love and God’s justice are perfect and always present. It is our job to be in right relationship with God and others so that we can be channels of that love and justice for those who need it. For now, I’ll start small by admitting my own faults and working on that change in my life, in hope of a brighter future for all.
Meg, I loved this...and it reminds me of a close friendship I had too that I'm still struggling a bit to deal with. One the one hand, I never want to talk to him again and for awhile that was a reality. It felt freeing to be away from the negative energy that his presence had in my life (story's super complicated, but he can be really judgmental at times...). And then, out of the blue, I receive a text from him and I could feel a deep visceral annoyance arise within me. Do I talk to him, forgive and forget, pretend that things are ok (it's way easy to pretend via texts) OR do I passively let things die down during the two years OR do I tell him straight up that I don't want to talk to him anymore because I think he's a complete phony? I wonder what forgiveness looks like in my case. I hate burning bridges, but in this situation, isn't it just healthier to eliminate bad/negative influences?
ReplyDelete(There's obviously a bit of anger too sprinkled throughout that I need to confront, ugh)
Hope things are well in Peru, btw!!